God puts road blocks and stumbling blocks and wrong turns and right turns into our path of life.. he does this to strengthen our FAITH in Him. Of course life isn't always going to be peachy keen, there are supposed to be things that hit you in the gut when you're feeling pretty good, and there are things that hit you in the your FAITH when you are feeling full of faith and on fire for the Lord. It's how we build strength and character. Or am I wrong?
We've been struggling financially these past few months.. ok truth be told since we moved back here from Spokane, we've been struggling, so for the past 3 years. But it seems to really be bad now. For the last two months we've come up short in our bank account?? HOW?? We don't over spend(well obviously we do somewhere) we dont buy extravagant things or go on vacations, we simply buy to live. Food, diapers that sort of thing. And yes occasionally, or more occasionally than I realize, we eat out. Well this month, something happened. We were coming up short, so I borrowed some from my folks.. we're STILL going to be over drawn, because a check I thought went thru didn't and now it and another and a third are outstanding AND we dont have enough in the bank to cover them. We're ok on food, we MIGHT need some milk before the first, but we're ok. Well Warren has begun to freak. He cursed God out for letting this happen and how could he?? He has all the power in the universe to do anything he pleased and he's letting us suffer. He's too angry to have faith. He doesn't want to give it over to God because he has before and nothing happened. He even went as far as to say we are starving to death(as our four angels lay happy and full bellied in their warm beds) and yadda yadda yadda. I corrected him right away and said we are FAR from starving. Our kids are in bed and are not hungry, we have a roof over our heads, we have our health, so on and so forth.. He admits he just wants to throw his temper tantrum. The thing of it is, is this.. ME, I, am trying to show him the way. Give it to God, let him have it, no it's not happening in YOUR time frame but it's happening in GOD's time frame. An eternity to US is a mere minute to God. I have faith we'll be ok, I have faith He will see us through and he's trying to teach us a lesson..
I wasn't always this faith-FULL. Not 2 years ago was I saying how can He exist? If magic isn't real then what is God doing? How did he create everything? MAGIC??? But going to church and reading the Word and listening to the Word I have learned that in all things you must have faith in HIM.. NO MATTER HOW TOUGH THINGS GET!! I learned it first hand when my husband was laid off (for the 2nd time in 2 yrs) and I was 7 months pregnant with 3 hungry boys to feed, and we opened our door one night to boxes upon boxes and bags upon bags of food and diapers and wipes etc etc etc. I truly found my way then. God provided he proved to us HE WILL PROVIDE.
I don't know how to give that feeling back to my husband. Speaking to him doesn't work. He doesn't hear me because he is so wrapped up in money, it's his obsession.. if only I could have more, if only we could be debt free and have all the money we need to "make it" If only... see this is what I think is God's lesson for Warren. ***Stop letting money be your priority stop letting it rule your life, your thoughts, your faith. If you obsess over money how can you be on fire for Him? How can you absorb the words of God and see for yourself how truly good he is. how He truly DOES have our best interests at heart. He doesn't like to see us suffer, we're his children, he loves us. but we have lessons to learn. We have to make strides in our faith walk and we have to show everyone around us how great God is. LOOK AT WHAT GOD HAS DONE TO OUR LIVES!! He has given the faithless, her faith and he has brought us through struggles. He was there for us. He's there for us now. ***
You just have to get your heart in the right place, your priorities in the right place and head down the path of God and Jesus and the Light of peace and harmony. You can't take money with you to heaven, you can't take possessions, you can only bring your faith and love of God. THAT is what you should worry about not having enough of. Do I have enough faith and love of God to make it thru the month?? Money? who cares! Its paper and we've got enough to sustain us, we'll be fine, we'll be JUST FINE. But you have to have your faith account filled.. You have to, even when you don't feel like it.
We'll make it thru, again... we will.
God bless
Trish